Sick

I thought it was about time I updated. Nothing exciting has been happening this month. I have been sick on and off practically all month. The Dr. put me on new meds, birth control, because my hormones were all out of wack. So I had the pleasure of dealing with the side effects. I think I would be a miserable pregnant woman, if taking birth control is any indication. I pretty much suffered from all they symptoms. I haven't felt this crappy since before I got my gallbladder out. Well the nausea and light headedness finally started to tapper off. I was, however, still feeling very tired and had a fever. My normal temp is between 96.8 & 97.8 so when I have a fever of 99 it is something. Well I have been running a fever of 99 to 100.4. The temp is different in each ear. So with the different temp in each ear I think I have an ear infection. This past weekend I started feeling crummy again. I stayed home on Sunday and rested in the hopes that I would feel better. I ended up coming home early from work yesterday. My fever is up to 101 now. I started taking antibiotics yesterday and I took today off to give them time to take effect. Plain and simple....I'm sick of being sick.
So now that I gave an update I'm sure you are wishing I would have kept it to myself, but it is too late for that now. I hope to be back to myself soon. Spring is on the way and there are things that I want to do. Volleyball, Mexican golf, bike riding, yoga...its time to get healthy.

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I had to share this it makes me laugh, it happened a couple weeks ago but it is still funny.
I got a call from my doctors office. The lady on the phone told me I was "abnormal". Ha! Like it didn't already know that? Now, however, science is convinced that I am abnormal. Join the club.

25 Random Things About Me...

I put this on my Facebook account, but I thought I would add it here for those of you who don't have facebook or are not my friend. I was intrigued with the 25 random things about myself. I hope you enjoy getting to know my a bit better. If you read this on Facebook you might want to skip this blog so you don't get too board.

1. I’m addicted to Golden Spoon frozen yogurt.
2. I have been a member of Weight Watchers for 2 years & I still haven’t meet goal, but I haven’t given up.
3. My husband Neal is HOT! (I think so anyway)
4. After 10 years of living in the desert I still don’t like it anymore than when I began. I miss four very distinct seasons.
5. I learned how to knit over winter break. I plan on making a bunch of scarves this year and then donating them to the homeless next winter.
6. The thing I want more than anything in this world I can’t have.
7. My dogs are my children and I love them. I’m planning on getting another dog. I want the same breed, but a girl this time. Her name will be Gracie.
8. My mom is one of my heroes. She is an amazingly strong woman with a huge heart. I love you mom!
9. I have a very strong testimony of the restored gospel of Jesus Christ. I am where I am today because of the love & grace of a merciful Heavenly Father who loves me more than I can comprehend.
10. I’m usually too busy looking toward the future and what is to come, to truly enjoy the moment I’m in. I need to work on this.
11. I loved being a teacher. I’m enjoying being a counselor (I think).
12. I actually like teenagers (most of the time)
13. I have amazing friends who inspire me to be better.
14. I love to scrapbook!
15. I take a two week trip home to UT every summer. It is the highlight of my summer break.
16. I’m obsessed with the Twilight books.
17. My sister, Audree, is one of my best friends.
18. I sell Lia Sophia jewelry to earn extra money and get jewelry at a discount.
19. I enjoy interior decorating. I also love watching interior decorating shows.
20. I gave chocolate up for 5 years once. I started eating it again for less than a year and a half and I have now given it up again. Chocolate is evil! It is my heroin.
21. Kim (AKA: KimE) Dyring is another one of my heroes. She has had a very challenging last two years. Her challenges would have broken me long ago. However, she continues to endure gracefully. She is an amazing example to all. If you know her then you have been blessed. For those of you, who don’t know her, pray to have a KimE in your life.
22. I’m negative…I don’t like this about myself and I’m trying to be better.
23. If I could go anywhere it would be Ireland. I’m not quite sure why but I have always been drawn to Ireland and I would love to go there.
24. I want to learn to: play the piano, be a hypnotherapist, & take better pictures (armature photographer). I love learning how to do new things these are just a few that are on my mind at the moment.
25. I hate not living in the same place as my family. It is terrible not being near them. I’m envious of all the people who can have Sunday dinners with their loved ones.

My list

I have notice a trend on facebook lately. One person added a note of 25 random things about his/herself and another person had a list of 25 memories. I even saw a list of 10 things that make you angry. Lists seem to be the new thing, so today in Sacrament meeting I thought it would be a good idea to make a list of 25 blessing or things I'm grateful for.
Here is my list, in no particular order:

1. My dog JJ he is such an angle! He is the sweetest boy and minds almost perfectly.
2. My dog KC he is my sunshine. He is the happiest dog I have ever seen.
3. My dogs unconditional love. If I leave the house for 5 minutes they both will attack me with love and gratitude that I am home.
4. Neal (my hubby) and his love for me.
5. Our home: for the shelter it provides as well as the comfort.
6. My job and for the opportunity it provides me to help others and make a difference.
7. My car: it is reliable and just what I wanted (almost)
8. The atonement!!! need I say more?
9. My faith
10. The Lords unconditional love.
11. The Lords infinite mercy.
12. My testimony of the restoration of the gospel.
13. My family...love them!
14. My friends...love them too!
15. Grass in my backyard its my little piece of home.
16. Neal's willingness & love of keeping the grass green.
17. My ward family...their love, support & example
18. My education. Thank you Neal, mom & dad for supporting and encouraging me.
19. the power of prayer. I don't know what I would do without it.
20. My agency...I have being told what to do.
21. The temple...its a little piece of heaven on earth.
22. Air conditioning!!!!!!!!!!!! The desert is way hot.
23. My calling...I love serving in the young women's program. I'm learning so much. I love the girls already they are amazing.
24. Music.
25. The gift of the Holy Ghost.
26. The scriptures
27. Weight Watchers...for teaching me how to eat and think about food.
28. My temple marriage.
29. Great teachers.
30. Scrapbooking.

Okay so I couldn't stop at 25. My life is filled with blessings, I could have kept going.

I made Neal write a list also. He had a hard time coming up with 25. Plus his list demonstrates how differently we think. One thing he is grateful for is that he is not a girl. I'm not sure what that is supposed to mean, but he is lucky he is not a girl. Being a girl is tough work and I don't think he can handle it. :-) I think in general women are hard on themselves. We judge ourselves to harshly and I for one don't take enough time to focus on the positives in life. If you are like me take a moment to list the blessings in your life. It will brighten your day! So TAG your it!

PS I can't wait to read your list.

My Hubby...Neal

Husband Tag, you're it!!

Where did you meet?
Institute...if you can call it that. I went to institute in Utah. When I went to Kingman it was a culture shock!

How long did you date before you were married?
6 months

How long have you been married?
10 years this coming March(26th)

What does he do that surprises you?
When he tells people how much he loves me, how proud of me he his for what I have accomplished and how lucky he is to have me as his wife.

What is his best feature?
His smile

What is your favorite quality of his?
His willingness to work hard.

Does he have a nickname for you?
Nope...he uses the same nickname everybody uses.

What is his favorite food?
Steak and potatoes

What is his favorite sport?
Nascar

When and where was your first kiss?
About 2-3 weeks after we meet. He was getting ready to leave for work (graveyard) and I was going to be leaving to go to Utah. I remember we were outside at Tina's house.

What is your favorite thing to do as a couple?
Laying down on the bed snuggling and talking about anything.

Do you have any children?
Do dogs count? We have two dogs, both boys. I'm really outnumbered

What are his hidden talents?
He really enjoys working in the yard. He like the challenge of trying to keep a green yard in the desert. He is really good at it.

Who said i love you first?
He did

What is his favorite music?
Hip hop R&B, rap

What do you admire about him?
His love and devotion to his family.

What is his favorite color?
blue

Will he read this?
Probably not

Who do you tag?EVERYONE! It's fun to learn about people's spouses

Thinking positive and being grateful

I haven't posted in a while because I tend to dwell on negative thoughts, and I thought maybe I should blog about something positive before you all think I'm a miserable person. Today I have had lots of ideas about what to write about. However, there is one thought that has been on my mind for a while now. This may seem strange, but I want to take a walk down memory lane. Perhaps its being called to young women's or maybe its getting in touch with all my old friends on face book, maybe it is reading LeShell's blog or most likely a combination of all.
I want to thank my good Friends from Junior high who supported me, loved me, and taught me. I hated junior high but in looking back I have many great memories and friends. I used to walk around the block to walk to school with my friends. I would walk the opposite direction of the school. I meet Joyelle, LeShell, Trudy & Daisy at the corner. We then stopped and picked Christy up at her house. Our last stop was for Angie. I could have met up with them at Angie's house, but that would not have been enough time to spend with them.
A lot my girl friends from junior high really helped shape who I am today, however, there are two women in particular who stand out in my mind at this time. First is Jeanette. I remember when I was really getting down on myself and I felt no self worth, she made me a list of my good qualities, along with some other friends, to help me feel better about myself. I think I still have that list somewhere. Second is LeShell. LeShell taught me the power of music. She showed me how music can bring the Spirit of the Lord into your life. I discovered Michael McLean through LeShell. These may seem like small thing, but it is through small things that great things are accomplished.
I want to thank the girls in my Sunday school class and young women's (don't forget the leaders) from the Walnut Hills ward for opening their arms to me. For taking me into the fold, for loving me for who I was and for who I became through their Christ like love. It is through their examples and acceptance that I learned to love the Lord and learned of His love for me. It was a priceless gift that I will forever be grateful for.
Never underestimate the power of a helping hand. You have no idea how your actions and words can change another persons life. I'll finish with one of my favorite quotes (I'm paraphrasing) "Be kinder than necessary, you never know what the other person is going through." Okay, so I butchered it, but you get the point.

I've disapointed myself, once again.

In January 2007 I found myself extremely motivated to lose weight after stepping on the scale and getting quite a shock. I decided to join weight watchers. It has been a good decision. By the end of November 2007 I had lost 46 lbs. I felt great. I was half way to my goal. However, in 2008 I continued to see saw back and forth. At first it was within a couple pounds two up two down. You get the point. Then I started going up 3 pounds down one. Little by little, and sometimes not so little, I have put back on 23 lbs!!!! {gasp in horror}
This last weigh in I went up almost 9 lbs. I had skipped two meetings and was not watching what I ate at all. I have let myself down. I dreams of reaching my goal weight last summer. I wanted to be at are very near my goal weight when I finished school. I can't believe how I let myself get so off track. I haven't kept my "eye on the ball" I've been to busy eating.
So I think I have gotten my rude awakening, to say the least. I am focused and determined to not only lose what I already lost but even more. Right now I have a closet full of clothes that are too tight to wear comfortably, and they are really cute clothes that I want to wear. I don't feel like I look good. I feel undesirable. I want to hide under a tent so that nobody can see what I have become. 2009 is going to be my year!
One thing I noticed looking back at this last year was that once I started eating chocolate again my weight loss journey became more difficult. 6 years ago this past August I gave up chocolate (except for hot coco and chocolate milk). I didn't eat chocolate for 5 years! But once I hit the 5 year mark I figured it was long enough and I thought I had things under control. Oh how wrong I was. So as of two days ago I'm not eating chocolate anymore! I'm going to make this a life long goal. I do have two exceptions just like last time; (1)hot coco and (2) chocolate frozen yogurt (chocolate yogurt has the same amount of points as vanilla, so why not eat the chocolate).
For the year of 2009 I made 4 new years resolutions. None of my resolutions had to do with losing weight. My resolutions were spiritually based. I know that if I get the spiritual part of my life in order everything else will fall into place. So with my determination and a lot of divine intervention I know that I will succeed at getting healthy and fit this year.